I know you guys don't care but...

I just got back from shopping :)
hehe

I initially just went because I was in dyer (dier?) need of shorts. The ones I have are too big and I seriously wear them all the time and they have holes in them.
Not okay.

So I go and buy some shorts at Old Navy--they are alright nothing special just jean shorts but still an upgrade.

Then I go to American Eagle and they have shorts everywhere!! So I buy a pair of black ones....and two cute tank tops and as I was checking out I see a really cute white pull over poncho with a tie in the back...yea definitly walked out, to the other side of the mall and then back to buy it. $40 but I am in love haha. (yes the sale people were curious as to why I had two bags and check out times haha
---tried finding a picture of it but I cannot! :( this pix is semi the same...but not as amazing---

Then I had a gift card to Macys. I don't really shop at Macys so I got some cool peacock feather earrings and 3 pairs of unmentionables ;)

THEN I go to Walmart for a cheap belt. (Who pays $17 for a belt? No one fricken sees your belt! haha

and now my quick shopping trip has transformed my wardrobe :)

Yay for retail therapy!

.....cannot believe how much I sound like a teenage girl right now.....ew.

Scared Straight

Tonight me and my friend went out.

We were waiting at a bar for some friends then went to dance then got tired of waiting and dancing so we went home.

On the way home she gets pulled over.

Freaking out I recount her drink total for the night: 2 beers and a martini. We pre-gamed a bit at my place before going out but it wore off before dinner. YEs she had a pizza with her 2 beers.

So I am waiting for the cop to finish with her praying to God that she doesn't get a DUI. It takes backup cars and about 20 minutes for us to finally be on our way.

SCARIEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE.

Yes, she wasn't drunk but the cop did pull her over because he thought she was. He also gave her a $95 ticket for swerving.

I may never drink again :/

WHole life put into perspective lol Damn

Adorable City, Population 2.

Love Story in the Making (lets be real, NO FREAKING WAY)

I met a guy in NOVEMBER.
Yes November lol.

I didn't give him my number because I made a rule not to give out my number when I am drunk...or at a bar. (They don't always go hand in hand haha)

I did however tell him where he could find me.

Unfortutley the "where" I told him he could find me will not occur until February lol
He said he wouldn't forget and he would show up.

Now wouldn't that be a story: He remembers 4 months to wait and see me!
now, now I am FULLY AWARE I will probably never see his face again for the simple fact that I wouldn't wait 4 months for some chick I met one time.

But in all honestly, if he just happened to show up I would probably fall in love with him just because that is AWESOME
haha it doesn't take much for a girl to fall for you guys!

Anyhoo if he did show up I would look past the fact that he is shorter than me :/ which I NEVER do hahahahaha....oh wait, now that I write that out I don't think I can look past that!

ok ok enough nonsense for now, bedtime!!!




Wait, one more thing. I realize this kinda makes me look like I play games like this. I DO NOT. I really didn't want to give him my number but remembered that February is coming up and was wondering if he did inn fact remember :) That is ALL!
goodnight for real this time

ADD posting

Wow I realize that this is like the third time in three posts that I am writing something about facebook but really It's beginning to get on my nerves!!

Posting a quote as your status when you are really feeling that quote or it explains your mood or situation perfectly is one thing
But I feel like people are posting quotes just for the sake of sounding insightful while wanting to update their status

Don't get me wrong I enjoy a good quote as much as the next person and a year ago I would be looking up one right now but now whenever I am in a certain mood and think "I shoudld look up a good quote to help me deal and I'll just put it in my status so my friend's know what me feelings are on this situation or whatevs" I find myself realizing that I HATE reading other people's lame and unoriginal quotes so I don't.

:(

Damn people! Taking away my favorite pasttime...Quote hunting!!
hehe just kidding

Oooh but a new hobby of mine is YELP.COM
I seriously Yelp everything nowadays :) try it it's soooo useful!!

But back to my bottom line: I hate people.
haha not persons! just people, ya know the plural.
THe other day we were at the beach, and HELLA people were there and I seriously wanted to leave. Then today I went to study at Barnes & Nobel and there were no seats and just rude people waking into me.
I know, kinda hypocritical for getting frusterated at people for doing exactly what I am doing. But I guess I am just the kinda gal who wants to do things in a small crowd and not be caught up in stupid people people crowds.
Did that make sense?
I DON'T CARE!!!

ok sorry, random post.....very random

Old Fat Me

If you have read some of my more boring posts you would know that I recently lost 30lbs.

Now, I only bring this up because I just went through a bunch of my old facebook pictures (deleting a shit ton of them) and realized just how big I was back then.

The thing is, when I was heavy I didn't really know it. Ok I KNEW it, I just wasn't like as big as other people I have seen so I figured I just had "more to love". Oh nonono! I was LARGE lol and this is the first time I noticed it!

Which makes me worry. Now that I am slimmer, smaller, drowning in all my old clothes and feeling pretty good about my size...what if yet again I am too big and I don't notice it till I am smaller?! ugh

Like duh a lot of you are probably saying, well it's not hard to know when you are fat! And yes I agree with you. I still can lose a few more...but like how did I feel good about myself 3 pant sizes bigger than I am now!? It confounds me :(

I don't ever want to get back there
Poopy

Quick Vent Sesh, Thanks

Venting Session!
I'm not one of those people who think that my drama (if I even have drama) is the most interesting thing ever BUT I also know how much some people like gossip or drama and I am kinda heated about this at the moment so you can read about my issue haha DEAL WITH IT!

I am a junior in college and have been at this college for 3 years. In my junior class on my team I have 9 other girls. Freshman year I was the only one who played consistently. Sophomore year my best friend also got a starting spot. Now it's our 3rd year and some girls who have been around as long as I are complaining when they realize that they are not starters.

These girls (there are 3 of them as of right now being babies) are CONFUSED. Someone needs to tell them that there is a difference between WAITING FOR YOUR SPOT aka waiting till the girl ahead of you graduates. and EARNING YOUR SPOT aka doing extra work-yes extra as in when NO ONE IS WATCHING.

Girl #1: Is bad mouthing the freshman who came in and "stole" her spot. Keep in mind that girl #1 is BAD like not even decent for our team. She has improved since she walked-on but I never did nor do I now expect her to see playing time. She thinks that she is better than she is and pretty much ruined her friendship with the freshman because she is mad at her for being better. Lame right?

Girl #2: Got a little playing time our freshman year. But come our sophomore year she just wasn't where our team was. We got some BOMB players and her level of play didn't elevate with our team so she got sent to the bench. Now she is getting beat out of her position by a fellow junior who abet isn't WAY better than Girl #2 but has been getting the job done much better lately. but this girl is the reason behind my venting. SHE TURNS TO FACEBOOK TO COMPLAIN. IN A STATUS. WHERE EVERYONE ON OUR TEAM CAN SEE IT IN ADDITION TO FANS WHO SHE HAS AS FRIENDS. Are you serious? If I wanted you to start before I damn sure do not want it now. I am debating on writing her a comment telling her to stop being a baby and realize someone is better than her and if she wants to play she needs to do something different and stop waiting for a handout!

Girl #3: I'll be honest I can see her viewpoint a little bit. She is a quality player. She had to sit out behind a starter for 2 years but in those 2 years every time she got a chance she did perform. And then this year when her position goes "up for grabs" she gets a crowd of players looking for a spot around her and she just get's kinda forgotten because she is nothing special. I guess I just got peeved at her when I saw her and Girl #1 liked Girl #2 status's. then Girl #2 goes and says that they are all in the same boat.

I am not sure where they got their misplaced sense of self-entitlement but for girls working for their spots and others who want the other spots filled with good players It's Frustrating.

Sorry that might have been hard to follow with all he Girl#'s and shit. And sorry if I brought down your mood with my venting....wait, there is no way I brought down your mood, you don't even know me!! hahaha

Craigslist Connection!!

Question: Have you ever been a "missed connection" on Craigslist?

Lol yes random! I was actually looking for ideas for a summer job/ price range for apartments when I got off task (this happens too much lol) and I started seeing EVERYTHING Craigslist had to offer.

I found the usual: puppies, sofas, volunteers, etc, blah, blah, blah but I wondered what a MISSED CONNECTION was and upon finding it I think it is a great idea!

One, (unfortunetly) I would never use because thats odd to say the least but I cannot tell you how many times I see an attractive man and think, damn if only I could see him again. And lo and behold if you and he were prolific Craigslisters then maybe you could!

Just go read a few they are semi-entertaining!
Maybe someone posted one for you lol

So yea there ya go random find of the week :)

Sorry

That last post was written when I was semi-drunk

I would delete it but I figure at one point in time I had wanted to post it so I might as well leave it up

even though there are typos and it can be offensive and just a lame read

It happens guys, I'm 21 I do what I want!!



teeheehee

If you read any of my posts, let it be this one

I will laugh at dirty jokes but I don't think they are funny

I believe in God and obey his rules but plan on having premarital sex once I find someone worth having it with

I eat healthy and run daily but drink my weekends away

I think one of my best friends

I think white girls who love black guys are pathetic...even though I find them a million times hotter than normal guys I can never be with one because of this

My best college friend has asked me to be her bridesmaid and i think that she went into college looking for a friend to fulfill this role in her wedding. She needs to stop revolving her life around her relationship.

I am attracted to quiet shy guys, which sucks because they never get the nerve to ask anyone out.

I don't want kids because #1: I never plan on putting myself through labor and #2 I don't want to watch them suffer or cry (which is inevitable in our world)

I don't understand why I automatically turn away guys without giving them a chance

I have some smelly silent farts

I just found out that I am smart when I really put my mind to it

I like being on my own. I am comfortable being alone.

I am afraid of the day when my grandma dies...even though she had been 'gone' for a long time now

I wish I could have met my grandfather...because for some reason I feel close and connected to him

I feel like I am a great actor and would love to be in a movie but will never audition because I hate being outside my comfort zone

I wish my life was a country song

I love the way I look

I love being tired enough to fall asleep for days and I love waking up from a midday nap

I have a fear of being late

I love subway sandwiches

I don't find Conen O'brian funny nor do I find many of the other late night talk guys much more funny

I hate that people can't make decisions

I think that goth and punk people are the biggest followers of the crowd

I could spend all night looking at the stars if someone else was with me...or else I get scared

I loved high school but would NEVER EVER EVER go through it again

Waffles are one of the best inventions

I have plenty of gay friends that I love and even though I know gay people are hella chill I think two girls in a relationship is too much drama and hormones.


I wish I could see the future so I could see if he would take me back if I tried

I will never try

I love my new bangs but everyone telling me how pretty I look now makes me think I was ugly before

this may be the most honest post I have written.

Everybody love Everybody!!!

Went out last night to celebrate my friend's 21st.

It was fun...but funny thing about us: we love to dance!
The place we were at was just playing reggae music which was chill for a while but we needed to dance so we left.

And (being that 5 out of 9 people in our group were gay or curious lol) we ended up at a gay bar!

I didn't mind as long as I could dance! and my was it an experience!
Those gays sure know how to have fun haha me and my girls were dancing for hours and pretty much settled into the fact that the only straight guys there had been brought by their gf so no creepers trying to dance all up on us like other places

Too bad a gorgeous straight guy asked me to dance when we were about to leave and my feet were sore as hell :( WHERE WAS HE AT THE BEGINNING OF THE NIGHT haha

But word to the wise if someone suggests gay bar you should check it out! Good people good times no judgements hahahaha!

Ok so the other day I had millions of things to blog about...

but I was so tired I only chose one.

Now I cannot remember any.

This is not really helping my procrastination of my Essay due tmw

Awww shoot. Well sorry you just read this pointless post. I promise next time will be juicy gossip.

well not gossip....just interesting...at least to me :)

Yea, yea this is that random post about God

The avid reader of my blog (so this would probably be just me) can see that I am not a super religious person. I talk a lot about random things and my opinion may be judgmental and definitely not something I would say to a priest, pastor, rabbi or whatever. But I do occasionally....well semi-occasionally...post about the big man upstairs and this would be one of those special times. If you are some kinda devout atheist and the thought of God offends you then go ahead and skip on through. I'm no expert and for all I know this whole post will sound naively stupid and hopelessly hopeful.

HERE IT GOESSSSSS............

God I feel stupid for even writing this! But I don't you any of you guys...and there is a 70% chance no one will read this (82% chance that statistic was made up).

OK ENOUGH STALLING!

Here's the deal: I have been trying to make it a nightly thing to pray before I go to sleep at night.
Before you zone out and quit reading, my praying goes something like this,
"Hey God. Thanks for giving my such a badass family...wait can I say badass?"
lol that's just the most recent example that I can think of.
BOTTOM LINE: I talk to Jesus like he is my Home Boy. He's the most powerful being ever right? Then I don't need to talk all holy to him and what not. Ok sorry that was off topic.
I was praying and all of a sudden I literally felt God's presence in the room. Like I'll e the first to tell someone that they are being a little dramatic when they talk about shit like this but REALLY I DID. I would explain it more but either you believe me or you don't.
So I felt this amazing presence that night and I all of a sudden couldn't stop smiling because I knew something big as gonna come. And it was coming fast like immediately. It was like God was telling me that my life was going to be changed forever, in a good (big) way...Now here's the kicker: I have had this same experience twice more since.

Weird right: I go 21 years with rare possibly imagined encounters with God (to be fair, I didn't believe in God for a period of time, and now all of a sudden he is reassuring me three times!? I don't know I just needed to write this all out and see how it looks.

I don't know if I should get my head checked or start opening myself up more to this amazing, unknown thing that is coming. Either way 2011 is a new year (and according to Ancient Mayans we have only one more left) and I seriously feel like a big change awaits. Not sure if this is stemming from my encounter or just me being me but hopefully I change...Not that I'm not Awesome As Is.

Welllllp, yea judge me or not I wrote it so deal with it. And yes I will most definitely let you know if this great thing (person? friend? job? award?) ever emerges.

Back on the Wagon

Long Story Short:
-This summer I took to running every day, not with the specific goal of losing weight just because it was good for me and I wanted to be able to be a fast runner
-Apparently I lost 30 lbs. I say apparently because my scale must be broken as it never wavered the whole summer but I go back to school and everyone is commenting on my weight loss...and none of my clothes fit.
-It was nice but very unexpected? like I didn't know it was happening till after it happened?
-Anyhooo school and finals started my "I can't run today" phase and it continued through the holidays. Like I did run but noticeably slower lol
-But now I have decided that all these new clothes I am in won't fit forever if I stop running!! So I will start up.

I'm not just saying that! I went on TWO runs today.

Man I used to be fast like sub 7 minute mile fast....the hardest part is the start!! haha hope you all had great holidays.