Ok so the other day I had millions of things to blog about...

but I was so tired I only chose one.

Now I cannot remember any.

This is not really helping my procrastination of my Essay due tmw

Awww shoot. Well sorry you just read this pointless post. I promise next time will be juicy gossip.

well not gossip....just interesting...at least to me :)

Yea, yea this is that random post about God

The avid reader of my blog (so this would probably be just me) can see that I am not a super religious person. I talk a lot about random things and my opinion may be judgmental and definitely not something I would say to a priest, pastor, rabbi or whatever. But I do occasionally....well semi-occasionally...post about the big man upstairs and this would be one of those special times. If you are some kinda devout atheist and the thought of God offends you then go ahead and skip on through. I'm no expert and for all I know this whole post will sound naively stupid and hopelessly hopeful.

HERE IT GOESSSSSS............

God I feel stupid for even writing this! But I don't you any of you guys...and there is a 70% chance no one will read this (82% chance that statistic was made up).

OK ENOUGH STALLING!

Here's the deal: I have been trying to make it a nightly thing to pray before I go to sleep at night.
Before you zone out and quit reading, my praying goes something like this,
"Hey God. Thanks for giving my such a badass family...wait can I say badass?"
lol that's just the most recent example that I can think of.
BOTTOM LINE: I talk to Jesus like he is my Home Boy. He's the most powerful being ever right? Then I don't need to talk all holy to him and what not. Ok sorry that was off topic.
I was praying and all of a sudden I literally felt God's presence in the room. Like I'll e the first to tell someone that they are being a little dramatic when they talk about shit like this but REALLY I DID. I would explain it more but either you believe me or you don't.
So I felt this amazing presence that night and I all of a sudden couldn't stop smiling because I knew something big as gonna come. And it was coming fast like immediately. It was like God was telling me that my life was going to be changed forever, in a good (big) way...Now here's the kicker: I have had this same experience twice more since.

Weird right: I go 21 years with rare possibly imagined encounters with God (to be fair, I didn't believe in God for a period of time, and now all of a sudden he is reassuring me three times!? I don't know I just needed to write this all out and see how it looks.

I don't know if I should get my head checked or start opening myself up more to this amazing, unknown thing that is coming. Either way 2011 is a new year (and according to Ancient Mayans we have only one more left) and I seriously feel like a big change awaits. Not sure if this is stemming from my encounter or just me being me but hopefully I change...Not that I'm not Awesome As Is.

Welllllp, yea judge me or not I wrote it so deal with it. And yes I will most definitely let you know if this great thing (person? friend? job? award?) ever emerges.

Back on the Wagon

Long Story Short:
-This summer I took to running every day, not with the specific goal of losing weight just because it was good for me and I wanted to be able to be a fast runner
-Apparently I lost 30 lbs. I say apparently because my scale must be broken as it never wavered the whole summer but I go back to school and everyone is commenting on my weight loss...and none of my clothes fit.
-It was nice but very unexpected? like I didn't know it was happening till after it happened?
-Anyhooo school and finals started my "I can't run today" phase and it continued through the holidays. Like I did run but noticeably slower lol
-But now I have decided that all these new clothes I am in won't fit forever if I stop running!! So I will start up.

I'm not just saying that! I went on TWO runs today.

Man I used to be fast like sub 7 minute mile fast....the hardest part is the start!! haha hope you all had great holidays.

I Need To Learn How To Cook

Blaaah I can't cook.
Well I Can Cook...but no one else would find it appetizing
I literally just throw stuff together and call it a meal
It looks like mush
and our oven is like 7billion degrees too hotter than it's supposed to be so I can't use it...
And I'm too cheap to buy food to cook with!

But I can make some mean garlic mashed potatoes









For the record I did not cook what this picture looks like...
actually this looks better than what I cook looks like :(

It is 1:30am and I AM TOO EXCITED TO SLEEP!

Why?

Because I (hopefully) am getting my hair done tomorrow!!!
yes haha I know total girl thing to get excited over

BUT! My whole life I have had short hair--shoulder length or shorter. For some reason my hair is now past my elbow!! Super long and I love it but it is kinda dead lol

So I have literally just decided (like literally) that since I do not have a final tomorrow that I will call up the keeper of the credit card (Mama!) and explain to her my unfortunate circumstances (I am a master with words when it comes to shit like this)

Hopefully if she says yes (99% likely...no 100% likely!) then my long strawberry blond hair will be transformed into a (still long) dark brown, with layers and side bangs style....dramatic change?

Eh I DO WHAT I WANT!!! hehehe It's like an early Christmas Present! New Hair!!

Go Check Out This Website

I don't get into serious topics too often here but I'm kinda curious about this.
Check out this website & watch some of the videos (Chase Utley from the Phillies is one of them)
http://www.iamsecond.com/
Anyhoo just seems weird that these people all had an epiphany when they needed God.


My Relationship with God Cliffnotes Version:
1.Blindly believed because I was raised that way
2. Met some "believers" who were very close-minded or hypocritical
3. Decided I was tired if feeling guilty for "letting God Down"
4. Decided to live for me
5. Didn't believe (to the dismay of my family) for about a year
6. I prayed...well more like talked to God...for the first time in a year and he gave me a miracle. Yea Corney but truth!
7. Now I am slowly trying to get back that unwaivering faith in Him

I'm trying alright....I get points for that.

Wonderful!!!

I am currently listening to Christmas Music
and eating Spicy Ahi Poke
my life is complete.


Oh yea and studying for statistics :) double win



NOOOOT

but still :)
I DON'T HATE IT