Music Changer

I think it's funny how whenever I am into a certain guy I always listen to the music that they like.
Not because I am trying to change my own music taste but because it reminds me of him or because it makes me feel like I am with him.

The only time it sucked was when I was dating this 'country music' type guy because when it ended all I could listen to were country songs and guess what? 98% of country songs are fucking sad love songs!! haha

but anyways now I have my pandora set o Mumford and Sons :) so lets see where this one leads

ps. The only time this does NOT happen is with this one guy I am on and off with who loves straight up rap old school music...CANT DO IT haha

Look Whose Back

I haven't written here for a while and honestly that is a VERY good thing.
I began writing here because I needed to write my feelings down somewhere, feelings on deep things or stupid things lol
Since I lose every journal I keep or the wrong people end up reading it I turned to this blog :)

However I stopped writing when LIFE happened. I was so happy that I was always able so express me feelings to people in person.
Ever since the beginning of summer I have had this "Life could be worse" attitude and nothing bad ever really messed it up. For once I was a real live optimist :) IT WAS AWESOME

Well I'M BACK and you can guess what that means...I have some "iffy" feelings that I don't want to share in person so I have to write them here...they aren't depressed feelings or anything....just different

But one good thing that will come of this is that I have a lot more juicy stuff to write about hahahaha not that I wasn't interesting before but just that my men problem's have gotten so big and drama-filled that it makes for good reading...but we will get to that when I come to it

For now just know I'M FUCKING BACK :)

A tad paraphrased...

Foregggeeetful Lucy!

Her lips are so damn juicy!

How bout another first kiss??

Watching MADE

Wooow Some people can talk the talk but are STRAIGHT BABIES when it comes to to walking the walk.

Do you really think things are easy? Like really!????

This one chick got so excited to lose 60-70lbs
once they told her she should aim for 20lbs she started crying
Now they started working out and she cries saying "I don't like it" I don't want to do this"
Umm sweetie how did you expect to lose 60-70 originally without working out?

I'm not being mean...I have seen many MADEs and the best ones are where the kids keep pushing and embrace the workouts no matter how dumb they look or hard it is.

She wouldn't even eat a salad because she doesn't like salad, she started crying because she wanted to eat her bbq food. DAY ONE!!

I just want people to know that things do not come easy! Hating others for having what you do not have is easy but working to get what they have is hard.

Nothing worth it is ever easy!!

Ok sorry I sound like a bitch but uggghhh I don't like it when people say they can't do something without really trying! :(

Lazy Sunday

Meet The Fockers...enough said.

Heart's got nothing to do with it

I don't know why people call it heartbroken...
Because in all reality your heart is in your chest, and whether you are in love or hurting your whole body feels it not just your chest.
Maybe because it starts in your chest? But really you laugh and cry and smile on your face. You hold hands or bite your nails with your hands. You play footsie tap your leg with your feet. You play with your partner's hair or twirl your own. And we won't get into the more intimate feelings but you get the idea.

When someone is keeping you up at night it isn't your chest that is up, it's your mind. It is your soul reliving the past not the heart. In a sense, I don't think our heart should have anything to do with love...because telling someone that their heart is broken makes them feel like their body has betrayed them--telling someone that their soul is troubled gives them hope for the next person to come along with a soul jolt :)

I don't wear my heart on my sleeve...I walk into a room and let my aura attract others.

Too lame? Too sentimental? Too naive or confuscious? Deal with it bud

Wow, I just appreciated a little thing in life!

Ok I must be close to dying because I just noticed the beauty in something I never noticed before!
I swear it was like one of those epiphany's you have before you die where you remember that moment and all is okay...weird.
I am just sitting in my front room studying the Gene Expression Model and a heavy wind blows so I look up to see a bunch of leaves fly past my window...mind you I am on the third floor so I found this amazingly beautiful and actually smiled.

WEIRD! haha I am not an artist or a poet or actually anyone who would find beauty in something like this but It Just Happened!

I feel like that weird kid in American Beauty who found the plastic bag floating in the wind beautiful lol