I Need To Learn How To Cook

Blaaah I can't cook.
Well I Can Cook...but no one else would find it appetizing
I literally just throw stuff together and call it a meal
It looks like mush
and our oven is like 7billion degrees too hotter than it's supposed to be so I can't use it...
And I'm too cheap to buy food to cook with!

But I can make some mean garlic mashed potatoes









For the record I did not cook what this picture looks like...
actually this looks better than what I cook looks like :(

It is 1:30am and I AM TOO EXCITED TO SLEEP!

Why?

Because I (hopefully) am getting my hair done tomorrow!!!
yes haha I know total girl thing to get excited over

BUT! My whole life I have had short hair--shoulder length or shorter. For some reason my hair is now past my elbow!! Super long and I love it but it is kinda dead lol

So I have literally just decided (like literally) that since I do not have a final tomorrow that I will call up the keeper of the credit card (Mama!) and explain to her my unfortunate circumstances (I am a master with words when it comes to shit like this)

Hopefully if she says yes (99% likely...no 100% likely!) then my long strawberry blond hair will be transformed into a (still long) dark brown, with layers and side bangs style....dramatic change?

Eh I DO WHAT I WANT!!! hehehe It's like an early Christmas Present! New Hair!!

Go Check Out This Website

I don't get into serious topics too often here but I'm kinda curious about this.
Check out this website & watch some of the videos (Chase Utley from the Phillies is one of them)
http://www.iamsecond.com/
Anyhoo just seems weird that these people all had an epiphany when they needed God.


My Relationship with God Cliffnotes Version:
1.Blindly believed because I was raised that way
2. Met some "believers" who were very close-minded or hypocritical
3. Decided I was tired if feeling guilty for "letting God Down"
4. Decided to live for me
5. Didn't believe (to the dismay of my family) for about a year
6. I prayed...well more like talked to God...for the first time in a year and he gave me a miracle. Yea Corney but truth!
7. Now I am slowly trying to get back that unwaivering faith in Him

I'm trying alright....I get points for that.

Wonderful!!!

I am currently listening to Christmas Music
and eating Spicy Ahi Poke
my life is complete.


Oh yea and studying for statistics :) double win



NOOOOT

but still :)
I DON'T HATE IT

The Song that Literally Makes Me Turn into Superwoman

Sure it's not really singing..more like girl rapping and sure I could sing it just as well....But HELLO that's the point! So I can sing along to a song that is saying exactly what I'm about to do!!


:)
Lesszz Go!!

Don't Wish, Don't Start...Wishing only Wounds the Heart

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl


Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl

Last Call

Sorry Christmas time turns us single people a little Emo at night :) Bear with me


If it was this easy to let love in then the lonely late night blog posts would vanish
and florists everywhere would be swimming in the hard-earned cash of hopeless romantics.

If we had a "Love Button" then God's despondent prayer traffic would dwindle.
Our tears would taste sweeter...our smiles would last longer...our heads would be in the clouds.

But we don't.
We have to learn on our own. We have to make mistakes and take chances.
There aren't any chances with a "love button" so when your love comes...it's expected.
It's not a pleasant surprise.

What's better than seeing someone you think is way out of your league and having them think the same thing about you?

It's tough to see couples everywhere I go.
It's tough to hear love songs and not know what the feelings they are describing feel like.
It's tough knowing there is no one to go home to.
Closing time.

Text From Last Night

(315):
So i just bought beer on a credit card, using a fake ID, while wearing my nametag from work. All 3 have different names on them. God i love my boobs



I am well aware that this is being posted right after I posted about Finals and studying...its a coincidence I swear haha I just found this a tad funny

Finals Next Week

Yea Yea we are all tired of reading our friend's facebook status' about how finals are slowly killing them and blah blah blah

But this is my blog is it not? Therefore I reserve the right to complain about finals in the most non-complaining way...Deal With It :)

I KID YOU NOT I studied nonstop today! from 9:30am till 10:30pm. I changed location 3 times and ate two meals and facebooked for maybe 30minutes total but other than that I was a STUDY ANIMAL!!

I was in the zone and it was very much needed.
#1 my statistics teacher is a dimwit and I had to re-teach myself the whole semester...which I did and now I feel like I can become a Doctor and preform open-heart surgery tomorrow
#2 My two finals on Monday have a SHIT-TON of material that I hafta cover but no biggie I don't mind memorizing facts as long as no numbers or dates or formulas are involved :)

Soooo yes I have a Christmas party to go to tomorrow but then me and my friend decided we might study into the night...
I sound like such a nerd right now
Whatever sound like a nerd now but act like a genius when grades come out.

CANNOT WAIT TILL THURSDAY AT 4pm aka when I am FREE for Christmas Break!!

My Kinda Man

Even though it is girly handwriting...but that's ok I write like a boy I'll admit it

My first Christmas Gift this Year

Is a coffee maker...hahaha
With Kona Coffee...and gum for the coffee breath (damn she thought of everything!)

This could either be a really good thing or a really bad thing.

Either way with finals next week I can guarantee you it will get a lot of use!

I should really go buy some milk or creamer because black coffee is for depressed people.

JOKE joke! simmer down

ps. I was looking for like a cool picture of a girl studying with coffee (ya know to look like me or whatever) but this dude is pretty darn easy on the eyes

I am beginning to think

I was made to be alone.


No pity party here I'm just thinking out loud :)

How many prayer's like this does God get per night?

Bedtime Prayer:

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a man who's not a creep.

One who's handsome, smart and strong.
Who's not afraid to admit when he is wrong

One who thinks before he speaks.
When he promises to call, he doesn't wait six weeks.

I pray that he is gainfully employed,
Won't lose his cool when he's annoyed.

Pulls out my chair and opens my door,
Massages my back and begs to do more.

Oh send me a man who will make love to my mind.
Know what to say when I ask "How fat is my behind?"

One who'll make love till my body's a' itchin'
He brings ME a sandwich too, when he goes to the kitchen.

I pray that this man will love me to no end,
And never compare me to my best friend.

Thank you in advance and now I'll just wait,
For I know you will send him before it's too late.

Amen

That Darn Poncho!

Just bought this poncho thing today (I need to stop shopping!)
I bought it with my early morning surfing sessions in mind. Ya know, just to throw over my bathing suit when it's cold before the sun comes out and what not.

Anyhoo after I bought it I said to my friend, "I am gonna wear this on New Years and sulk so everyone will know I am upset." ((sidenote: I will NOT be home on new years which I am quite mad about so yes I am planning out my sulking))

Is it weird that this poncho makes me feel dark? Like I am wearing it now and I am like semi-depressed! I don't really have a reason to be and I love this jacket (super comfy).

It's like "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants"
EXCEPT:
-its a poncho
-I am not sharing it with anyone
-I am not traveling
-I do not foresee it making flawless,hot,exotic men swoon over a girl in a poncho

...ok so it is not at all like that movie but I swear this Poncho has Powers!
Maybe it's because it's a guy's jacket. (yea second post on something I bought in the men's section but I swear that's it I wear girl clothes)

I want to take it off and see if my somber mood clears up
But it's SO COMFY and I like feeling mellow!

Everyone has a piece of clothing like this right? A mood changer?

You know those nights when...

You intend on being responsible and only having a few "social" drinks....then some crazy person kills your plans by convincing you that the next drink will be better then the one in your hand haha
and before you know it you need a DD to drive you home but everyone you call says "I'm drunk...come over here!"
haha yea it just might be one of those nights

Last Home Football Game aka time to get all my tailgating in till next year!!

((Yes I know it is not night time yet buuuutttt I am a professional, trust me I will be out all night))

A(freaking)DORABLE

I don't care if they are men's shoes I make them look better ;)

Sixbillionsecrets.com

I was a hater of this website at first. I thought it was a rip off of "www.postsecret.com" and in all actuality it is but I always read it because it get's updated more (daily) than Postsecret (which only gets updated Sundays). Some of the secrets get repetitive and I guess that's just how hard our lives are nowadays but I read one today that really got me:

I'm a 16 year old boy in high school.

My secret? I can't differentiate between a hot girl and a unattractive girl by their looks.

Honestly, they all look they same.

What makes me love girls is how they laugh.

And I have yet to hear an ugly laugh.



Who is this kid and where can I find a 21 year old version of him?
haha Good Guy.

If you take ONE thing away from this blog let it be this:

If you are living in a dorm or apartment building please think be aware of how loud you watch your damn TV.

This fool next to me watches like "Cops" and "The Fast & The Furious" till like 3am and I kid you not I hear every single word like clearly.

Here is the real kicker though--He is my R.A. (Resident Advisor for you non-college dirtbags) so I cannot go say anything to him because he will most definitely bust me and my roomies for doing something.

Got it?
I don't mean listen to your TV so quiet that you are guessing at half the words; just think about if the sounds of a speed racing car can carry out your window or through your wall to your lovely neighbor who wants to sleep.
KthanksBye.

Gimme Your Thoughts, this is a toughie

Ok I haven't had a "deep soul-searching" post in a while and this one has been burning in the back of my head all week.

Remember that guy I went on a date with?
Recap: Forgot his wallet, very funny, got along great, bad kisser, smoker

Yea well when I told him we should just be friends he got angry and stopped texting me altogether.....understandable.

But I think all these damn holiday commercials are getting to me. You know the ones of cute couples ice skating or whatever the hell couples do...yes well the entire Thanksgiving break I was fighting the urge to text him.

It's been like 3 weeks...I blew it right?

Ugh idk, it's not like I am in love with the guy, I guess I just want a boo during the holidays....is that selfish? What am I talking about of course it is. But what if it grows into something real? Whatever here's my question:

If I were to text him and make it look like it was an accident like saying "Hey when are you guys getting here?" is that a bad idea?
I kinda just want to see his response and if it isn't cold then maybe I can open up communication again for a possible better date?
Thoughts please?

frick, I can't seem to turn off the love songs or romantic movies in the winter time...NOT HELPING!!

Everyone loves Thanksgiving

Honestly the worst part about Thanksgiving?
That split second of nerves you get when your relatives arrive at your door (or when you arrive at theirs). It's like a moment of awkwardness to see if you have changed or if you two can pick up where you left off...and you always can which makes it worth the split second of awkwardness :)

Good food, good company, gooooood laughs
I love holidays.....LOVE!

I have had the same phone for 5 years

I just got the Droid Fascinate

Yep addicted...





Portable Pandora = my new obsession :)

Movie!!

Slow blog day :)Which meanssssss I will review a movie

That I saw about a month ago haha

EASY A
is also known as my new favorite movie!!
I am not exaggerating like most people because my old/ still tied with 1st favorite movie is "10 things I hate about you"
Soooo yea I'd say I am hard to please

Anyways this movie is hilarious
Unlike most romantic comedies with a tragically beautiful girl who is picked on (really for no reason as all the audience sees) and she takes the bullshit being dished out to her this chick in Easy A
DOES NOT haha
every time we watch a movie and see the "queen Bee" dish out some misplaced bullying we think about how we would react--or at least I do.
I would not take any of that BS and neither does the girl in this movie. Except her comebacks are less vulgar, more educated, and just all around badass

The main character is played by Emma Stone.
Emma Stone, you my girl have got IT.

This picture pretty much shows how the makers of this movie are tired of beautiful girls playing ugly ducklings until they finally put on a dress and put their hair down aka showing us all what we already know!

Go see this movie...right meow.

Tattoo placement

How do you like this placement for a tattoo?
It would say:
"Make everyday your masterpiece"

The only thing holding me back is not being able to hide it well when I am like wearing spaghetti straps or things like that :/
Random fact: I think a tattoo showing on your wedding day might distract people.

Yay or Nay?

Nightmare Date...KARMA for me :(

I should have known when he called me to tell me that he forgot his wallet that this was going to be a nightmare...

I spent $50 on dinner for a guy to attempt to feel me up, kiss me 3 puffs into his ciggarrette, attempt to make-out to which I told him to get some gum and then end the night trying to get me drunk to which I was thanking god that he forgot his wallet so couldn't get into the bar.

Fool me once shame on you , fool me twice shame on me.
I will not be fooled twice: NEVER GO OUT WITH A GUY YOU MEET AT A BAR.

especially if it's your 21st birthday

ew gag me, worst dating experience yet

Now I am sick :( but I am going to go to church today for the first time in maybe 6 months!
So yea there's the recap of my life recently.



Sorry no picture today...don't feel like finding a picture that makes me relive that night haha and my throat hurts too much :(

Does anyone want to

Take me on a date?
I mean really I have 3 followers and I would gladly go out with any of you :)

Today was the first day...

I put on a bathing suit and loved the way I looked in it!
:)

Set Up

Went to watch the game today at a sports bar...
met some cool guys...actually I met them last time so I guess we are all regulars haha
Anyways I THINK (think) one of them wants to set me up with this other guy that was at the bar the last time I was there
He was cute...not cute by other people's standards probably but I do have weird taste in guys.
I am going to try and go back tomorrow for the next game and maybe this guy will be there then (he had a football game today)
This may be me reading too much into things but I will let you guys know how things develope :)

Torture Never Felt So Good

Sometimes I do...

Sometimes...

Having One OF Those Nights...

When I am missing no one

:(

Never Fails at Cheering me Up

This is from www/givesmehope.com and it makes me smile


"Today my school had a fire drill.

I was standing outside with one of the most popular football players, when a Down Syndrome girl came up to him and wanted to hold his hand b/c she was scared.

Happily, he held her hand in front of all his friends back to class.

His soft side in front of his boys GMH"

If you don't know this website you should REALLY check it out :)
Have a Greeaaat Day!

I am so torn

My friend texted me last night and told me her dad hit her. She said he said he wanted to kill her. I have known this girl for 5 weeks and now she picks me to tell this to. I told her that it was not okay and she needed to get out of that house-- I offered to go pick her up.
She is trying to move into the dorms here but her dad pays her bills so he won't pay for that...I am on an athletic scholarship and want to give up part of my scholarship to help her. I was about to call my coach and tell him this when I decided I should ask my parents since they are the ones who would be picking up the tab so to speak.
I called my mom and told her and she made a point that hadn't crossed my mind..."Do you believe her?" Of course I believed her! but she makes a good point, how well do I know her. I mean what if she was exaggerating? I am still going to help her because I would rather take the chance of being taken advantage of than letting her get hurt
...
I don't know what to do. I have 3 roommates that I live with. I am not sure how they would feel if I brought in my friend to sleep on our couch :/
Why do parents have to be so dumb sometimes,,,,don't treat your kids like shit.
This girl is the most happy, optimistic girl I have ever met. I have never seen her upset or sad and she is HILARIOUS....no one deserves this but damn she hid it well.

It always makes you feel good when...

...someone you think is cute tells you that he thinks you are too :)
especially if you're not typically one of those girls who gets told that a lot

:) He made my night

Military Men THANK YOU

Military guys are 10x hotter than everyone else.
Is this just me?
Is it the short hair combined with muscles?
Nooo I was surrounded by hundreds of them this weekend and I'm pretty sure it might be the fact that they have direction in life.
Mabye its not that either...
All I know is that this guy was giving me the look on a 12 hour flight today and I tried to ignore it but the second he got up to grab is luggage and it was a military bag I thought I'd made a mistake haha

If you are having women trouble....join the military
If you are in the military....call me

Cleaning up My Act

I am going to stop drinking.
It's not like I am a drunk or anything like that.
I just want to see what it's like being the sober one at the party
Empty calories and hangovers sometimes aren't worth it
I may have a friend mad at me :( bc I cockblocked her...well she is gay so I vaginablocked her? haha
I mean sure college is reason enough to drink all the time but I'm gonna test my willpower.
College = Drunk nights :) But I am taking a month off...
I will not drink for a month :)
CAN DO

FML

2 Tests Next Week!
Way to steal my weekend school.

Want to feel like a Bad Ass?

Play this song to turn your swag on...
Definitely the soundtrack to my walk to class haha

Warm Up

No school till 3pm
All Day at the Beach!!
Lunch at THE SLOWEST SUBWAY EVER
--Took her 1 minute to clean up a drop of sauce
--Took her 10 minutes to find a new kife
A little sunburned
Watching One Tree Hill reruns
practice later
:)

This is like a warm up to school day after the 3 day weekend :)

Good Monday Morning

If you are gonna blast your music
so EVERYONE in a mile radius can hear you
make sure you have legit music playing
like my neighbors do right now :)

I got in!

Ok so 2 months away from my 21st birthday....
Last night we were all cruising and drinking but some other girls who wanted to meet us (long story) were at a bar and I am the only one who can't get in.
Welp I ended up having an i.d. that looked like me and we went for it.
HOWEVER I never had to use it. My friend went in before me, got a wristband, came out and took it off carefully then put it on my wrist :)
And it was a different guy working the door when we came in aka PERFECT
So my first bar experience was cool but were were there like 15 minutes
THe girls we went to meet were on their way out
A fight had just gotten the cops called
and we had definitely had enough to drink
:)
Now I am off to run off all those unnecessary calories

Eyebrows waxed!

Yaaaya I feel like a woman again :) hahaha

Love Rihanna... . .. .... ..

Niceeee song! No Homo Rihanna is def not batting for the other team :)

Was that a Miracle?

Not to get into too much of a deep subject but I am pretty sure I have previously written about my view of God. Here is the cliff notes version:
-I was born Catholic
-Raised going to church every Sunday
-Went to a Catholic School for my first 14 years of schooling (aka until college)
-Met a girl who was one of those "I-AM-BETTER-THAN-YOU-BECAUSE-I-HAVE-FOUND-GOD" people
-Decided that she was brainwashed by her family into thinking God was the only way
-Decided I had been to and needed to find God on my own
-Stopped believing in God....and liked it
-Mostly I liked not feeling guilty for 'letting Him down'

Ok, are we all caught up now? Well guess who witnessed a miracle two days ago and now by default HAS to believe in God because of it....yours truly. Ok so the thing was that I had been feeling guilty about dumping this guy a while back and had been wishing I could tell him sorry and maybe get him back (if you read my last post you know this is no longer the case). I had never prayed to God about this because I had stopped believing in hum by then. So two nights ago I prayed for the first time in about 6 months.
I said something along the lines of "I still don't know if I believe in you but I really want this guy to text me. I am not saying if he texts me I will believe in you I am just saying that I really want him to, and since it has been so long it is HIGHLY doubtful he will." So yea I went to bed.
The next day during lunch I get a text from him. SWEAR TO GOD. Like seriously what are the chances of that happening? The day after I pray for this it happens after I spent months WISHING it to happen! Am I wrong in thinking this means I have to believe in God now? I mean I want to but dayum I can't think of any other instance when my prayers have been answered so immediately (save one). The chances of this happening are slim to none so I am going to take it as The Big Man Upstairs saying "Dammit Stephanie I am here you better start believing in me again because I am sick of persuading you too!"

Haha oh and God has a sense of humor too. He granted my prayer then blindsided me with the whole "Be careful what you pray for" thing by turning my guy into a douschbag. :)

Either way I believe in God because of this encounter (even though I wish it would have happened later on) I can't ignore signs like this. And if I had heard a story like this from another person I either would not have believed it or I would think that the person was a straight toolbag. So think what you wish but DAMN it was cool!

Phew Glad that's over

Ok so for my loyal followers....all 3 of you (doubtful any of you three are reading this haha) you have seen my occasional lonely regretful post. Welp let me tell you that all that is OVER! Me crying over a lost love? Yea we just reconnected and let me tell you I made the right decision ending things.
I truly thought I didn't for about 6 months but now I see that I was just missing SOMEONE not missing HIM.
I don't know if he was trying to get back at me for ending things but he was borderline arrogant with hints of wanting me back.
Either way I am done with him and men in general...if I end up being a spinster who disappears every now and then to go on crazy adventures then that is A-okay with me :)

Those were yesterday's feelings...

I wish I knew if he would take me back...
I wonder if he still thinks about us
I feel he does but I don't have the balls to find out for sure :(
I made the biggest mistake of my young life and he tried to stop me...
On lonely nights like these I feel like the biggest IDIOT

Time goes by a lot slower when you miss the one you love.

Watch this without smiling. NOT POSSIBLE

Cheers me up every time :)

“The road to truth is long, and lined the entire way with annoying bastards.”

My best friend annoys the crap outta me sometimes.

Is that normal? It might be because we are so comfortable with each other...whatever.

But last night we took some shots together and were just talking and she pretty much fell asleep on me :( so I left and she freaked out because she thought I was mad at her

I ended up running into my other friend and went to his party and it was an EPIC night...maybe because I wasn't with her? because we do go to all parties together but I like going alone :)

Oh and then later I was using her computer and she had been looking up "Broken Friendship" quotes. Not being rude but I am her only friend sooooo yea. She needs to chill out

Stressballs!

Here are my stressballs that when combined with PMSing hormones = tears. But the waterworks are over and I am good to go!
1. Life after college...will I be happy with my job?
2. College now...am I taking the right classes? Will I pass?
3. Softball...Should I practice more or study more?
4. My body...am I eating too little and working out too much or should I work out more.
5. My roommate...I am convinced she doesn't like me so I don't care anymore :)
6. Home...yea yea I miss it and my family :(
7. Romance...when will this dry spell be over :/

Ok enough feeling sorry for me
put a smile on aka fake it till you make it

All Moved in

I arrived on Friday and now it is Sunday. All my shit is unpacked and now I am just waiting for class to start.
My choice to not live with any of my friends is so far turning out to be an okay move. Trus, I would be a lot more comfortable and maybe happier if my close friends were my roommates but I think I am making new friends now. Out of the 3 roommates I have I like Amanda the most. She is a transfer and doesn't really know anyone so she is super friendly and nice. Pua is my other roommate and from what I can tell she is very friendly but I don't run into her much. Now Jessi is the one whom I am actually sharing a bedroom with and so far she is the loudest of us but I guess that is better than not talking at all. So roommates = success.
School = sucks
I seriously felt like crying when I drove up to school and I don't know why! I didn't really bond with my family while at home but I felt myself missing them so much. I didn't really do much while I was home but I missed the freedom. I like being on my own but I don't like the fact that no one is looking out for me. FOR CRYING OUT LOUD it is my 3rd year! Shouldn't these feeling be gone by now? ugh I don't know. Hopefully the partying will start up so I can get my mind off of these things....

Packing Sucks

One would think that by my Junior year in college I would know how to pack.

On the contrary I have gotten worse.

I have 2 check in bags (both over the weight limit)

I have two monster carry-ons

I am screwed.

My new roommates are going to see someone with far too much shit that they don't want to be sharing a room with.

Sucks for themmmmmmmmmm

Proposing

Every girl (maybe every guy) has thought about that moment. What it will be like, what we would feel. The moment when someone says that they want to spend every moment of forever with you...or in realistic terms...someone who can tolerate more than any other attractive suitor. (haha sorry just sayin)
Anyways almost every couple I know that have gotten engaged it has not been much of a shock to the 'proposee.' For instance my roommate told me for at least 6 months that she would be getting engaged over Christmas Break (her boo had told her) so it was not much of a surprise. My 2nd roommate got engaged last spring and to be honest I has figured she was already engaged to this guy but I guess it just got "official." ps if you see a reaccurring theme yes, if you want to get engaged you should probably be my roommate
My parents same story, different setting--I'll spare you the details anyways back to my point (I swear I have one)
I always thought that when I got engaged it would be all lovey dovey and I would be so excited and we both would be unable to control our smiles and giggles all he way home. But now I have a different scene that might be better. Take a look at this clip.........................................like play it before you keep reading...............
Ok, did you see the look of shock. Now I'm thinking that this kind of proposal might be more realistic than a stereotypical ditzy celebration. It's REAL. Yes this is from a fictional tv show but it got me thinking that when that moment comes for me I want it to be so shockingly right. I don't want to see it coming but when it comes I want to be shocked into speechlessness at the fact that this great man choose me despite all my flaws. I don't want to be shocked that it could be wrong I want to be shocked that it could be RIGHT.

yea, strange-might be getting too ahead of myself but just saw the re-run and thought I'd share. Ok now I gotta go pack for year 3 of college uuugghhhh I hate packing!

Lady Gaga's Monster Ball

INITIAL REACTION TO LADY GAGA: I loooove her music!
SECONDARY REACTION: This Bitch is Crazy! (once again love it)
A LITTLE LATER: ummm She might be one of those 'Im different solely for the sake of being different' people.
AFTER THAT: I don't care! She's different and interesting and makes good music.

AFTER THE CONCERT: She is a funny, nice revolutionary woman.

wtf? Did I just say that about this psycho woman? haha yes and here is why...
1st- Her opening act has been playing with her ever since 2006 when they played in a bar with 12--yes 12-- people watching. She brings them to open her world tour even though they are not famous so to speak...I honestly found myself wanting to buy their CD not for the music but because they just entertained me and seemed fun and genuine.

2nd- The Gaga brought her roommate from like early 2000 to be a dancer for her. Now that is friendship. Oh, did I mention that her roommate is a black drag queen? Yes well these two woman must have made quite the disturbance back in the day.

3rd-Obviously her music was epic and (even though it has been well documented) the fact that she is not the best dancer didn't matter because we could tell that she was giving us 100% the whole time, and that is not normally something that a fan notices.

4th- She took the time to talk to us. Not like the whole "I LOVE SAN JOSE" and "I LOVE MY FANS" BS but she really talked. She made it a point to say that her fans are al the people who don't belong and she "locked the f*cking doors to keep everyone else out." Not once did she put down "normal people" she directed her anger towards people who inhibited others and who put down others. One thing she said that made my night was this: "I hope that you do not walk out of here tonight loving me more. I hope you walk out of here loving yourself more." wow. A celebrity that cares more about her fans loving themselves than her own fame. Class act.

5th- She really was quite funny. In her talk someone threw up some underwear (clearly a bigger man's pair) and she put them on and did her next number in them. She tried to make a point to pick up all the things thrown on the stage and say something about them, knowing that it would make one of her fan's night.

FINALLY- TO the outside eye Lady Gaga has fans that are LGBT and otherwise freaks. She is the one person that they can all rally behind to say "yes we can be great the way we are." But last night I realized that this wasn't because she was simply one of them. It was because she really sees the beauty in every single person and it rubbed off on every one of us lucky to be in attendance. As I was dancing in the dark I would look over and see some large girl dressed very boldly dancing horribly and my initial reaction was to mentally judge her but I stopped.
I saw the beauty in someone being herself and later on my drive home saw the beauty in myself. Just because I am not gay or "a freak" doesn't mean I can't feel alone. And last night I realized this Even though I am not sure who I am I can still love myself I may be weird for having Lady Gaga bring about this realization but aren't we all a little weird :)

Don't lie, you ARE weird.

1st Date

Just got back from my date with Marcus. I like him. A lot :)

Piercings

I got my nose pierced.

I really like it.

It gives me personality lol

Next summer I will get my lip pierced (just a stud not a ring)--summer 2011 btw

I am trying to talk myself out of it because I really don't want to look like one of those people with hella piercings

But so far I am failing

Give me a good reason NOT to pierce my lip lol

"I FEEL EVERYTHING!"

OMG as I sit here and write this I am currently on 3 Vicodin...and still in pain!! What the hell?
Why am I in pain? Lets blame it on my retarded pedicurist. I have had a redness on my toe for a while--and when I say for a while I mean like 4 years. I have not been in pain at all and really it didn't bother me.
The other day I went to get a pedicure. This psycho lady decides to dig in and I walk out of there with an ingrown toenail!! I just went to get it removed so I didn't have to go through my season with an painful toenail. Weeeelllll my doctor decides to give me my pain shots on the lower part of my toe. ONLY TO GO AND CUT UP THE TOP OF MY TOE aka where I could feel everything!! Think of having your lower part of your big toe numb, like around the knuckle. Now think of someone jamming a metal knife down your toenail and dis-connecting it from the nail bed!
ME: "I feel that."
DR: "Can you handle it?"
ME: "Umm I guess."
Dr: *Cuts in*
ME: "I FEEL EVERYTHING"
DR: It's almost over
ME: *grabbing my leg and burrowing my head into the wall to keep from yelling*

NOT AN EXPERIENCE YOU EVER WANT TO GO THROUGH.
THE MAN WON.

and now my prescription Vicodin is tearing up my liver :)

bad day lol real bad day

I can't say I care about your kids

Did I miss the memo that 98% of people with a blog are writing about their kids? Just sayin, not judging.

"Within you, I lose myself. Without you, I find myself wanting to be lost again.

Ever made a mistake you wished you could fix...and you CAN fix, you know how to fix it...but you wont? I never did, and thought it was stupid--If you know how to fix your mistake then just do it idiot! right? wrong. I am too afraid to...coward would be a better word :(

I let him get away--worse I SENT him away. Everything I ever wanted in a man and I was too scared to let myself realize it! All I have to do is call him and tell him I made a mistake. I figure there is a 50% chance of him taking me back. Better to try now and fail then wonder the rest of my life. But I cant, and you want to know why? Because I don't trust myself to not run away again and I cant--I wont-- play with his feelings like that. He really deserves better than me.
I hope he finds better than me.
But it will kill me when he does...

Life is painless for the brainless

Think of the last time you were really upset; could have been because your younger sister ruined your clothes, your girlfriend cheated on you, you failed a test you studied really hard for, etc.
Yes I remember the last time I was pissed. My parents were talking about giving my sister our family's brand new car. Sparing you the details, three out of the four kids in our family already have a car at college one of them being my sister and I'll let you guess who has yet to see a four-wheeled vehicle sent her way. Anyways I am used to kinda getting the shaft. Because I don't do anything when it happens. I don't like fights with my family because it only makes a villain out of me.
Anyways the point of this is that I think if I just choose not to care about anything other than my immediate basic human needs then I will have a happy life! Why invite stress in by getting attached to meaningless things or ideas? I won't get upset because I will be able to put everything in perspective and just brush it off :)
Life will be like one big dance from now on...........

Slow Blog Day

Okay so it's a slow blog day...lemme just give you a list of things :)
THINGS I LIKE
~When all 6 of my family members are under the same roof (holidays)
~Concerts where no one stays in their seats and it's just one big dance party
~Meeting people who you already know of but have never been formally introduced to
~Talking to the person you like really late at night
~looking at old pictures
THINGS I DISLIKE
~long fingernails
~when people slurp the end if their drink like
~Seeing someone eat alone at a restaurant
~Wearing sandals when it starts raining
~Being on my moped when it starts raining

Yeeep just because it's my blog and I do what I want :)

"I loved her first"

Love this song...Love this movie...Love my dad.


Father-daughter dance song at my wedding? I'll let you know once I get the man haha

Did Ya Know...

A world cup referee will run further than the players, at 12 miles in a 90 minute match.

Pretty impressive considering that the referees can be as old as 45!

FIFA referees need to undergo fitness tests to make sure they can keep up with the games. They have to do a 40 meter sprint in under 6.2 seconds SIX TIMES IN A ROW. Then they have to run 150 meters in under 30 seconds.

2 assistant referees failed the fitness tests this year and were not allowed to participate in the World Cup.

Now ya do!


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